So Much For My Thinking.

The definition of Fake is a term used to describe or imply something which is not real
The definition of Friend is a person you know well and regard with affection and trust The definition of Best Friend is the one friend who is closest to you. So if you put two and two togather you get the definition of a Fake Friend and you get a person that is not true to your trust or affection. Well I know for a fact that i am not a Fake friend because I am true to my friends i don't take their trust away and i do love them very much. I will bend over backwards and go through hell 3 times and come back just to help them out. I will do anything in the world for these girls and yes i am talking bout my BESTEST FRANDS EVER. and those two lucky girls are Trevella K'Ann Mills:)) and Rabecca Jane Miskimen:]] I have been through so much for those girls we have all had are fare share of tears and comforting each other and to me that is what a TRUE BEST FRIEND does. but here lately people have been acting differently to me and people have actually gained to trust me and like me more. So i have opened up to them and let them in my heart and just been a frand to them. But supposivly here lately i have been acting fake to my other frands and i have been acting different and that im a total whore and i cant keep my legs closed and i cheat on everyone and i make my best frands do horrible stuff its lke i hold them at gun point and tell them to do it.(why no) but ne ways. I guess here lately there is way much crap on my mind. between my frands and zack and nick and skool work and juggling parents and leah. and having boy trouble. and being a "slut" i guess i have a full time job. But oh well and if your reading this you know who you are and not im not trying to rub it in i just dont get it we try to include you and we try to ask wuts wrong. and u are just lke no no i dont wanna. im okay go on. and yah. your not a third wheel. its just that when im with her i feel happy bc she is all hyper and makes me happy and with you u just sit there and yah. so i dont know wut am i suppose to do but oh well. i guess ur just using me lke you use other people i dont know wut your purpose of having me in ur life is but YOUR PURPOSE IN MY LIFE IS TO BE MY BESTEST FRAND. and no i dont lke one of you better i just dont know why u act lke we do bad things bc u have sent pix to a guy and u do give head and yah. im not saying this to make you mad im saying this to prove a point we all make mistakes. yah i have slept w/guyz yah i have sent pix but so have you.....but u just havent slept w/ne one.!!! but u have giving head and i havent......BUT oh well its wutever to me im tired of trying to make ppl happy for once its gonna be about mychelle. its gonna be how i am doing how i feel how i look how im not happy how im in a bad mood how ME ME ME all me yes this is CONCEIDED but u know this is wut i deserve at the least i have been through hell these past 2 years. losing family , friends, and almost my family i have been through enough if i say so my self. but oh well if u wanna be my frand good lets hang and lets be frands. lets go im ready to have you there but if u gonna act lke this fine walk away lke a weak person. IM HERE FOR ME....and if u wana join go ahead. bc i really do need you. but if u dont need me then go on and find new frands.