I Came I Saw I Conquered

I am tired of all these ppl tat i love and care about just get up and leave or die..why why why i know they were in pain and i know this is selfish but i cant help but to think this way. Why take some one i just dont understand tat why did he have to die why my papa why not some one else...it dont matter whos just not mine. and wut i dont get is why God took him it wuz his time i know he wuz in pain but i just miss him so so much. why couldnt he live to see me become a "nurse" lol i member we wuld go to the nursing home to go see him and he wuld always be so happy and alway smiling like he wuz so happy i mean i know i wuz......i member i wuld go and get him stuff to eat from the cafeteria. and one time i had to fix his oxgen thing in his nose and he was said to me Your my little nurse. i will never forget that i never can. even though i dont want to be a nurse because they have to deal with too much blood and i am just not up for that. lol. but ne ways i will always rember something else about my papa.... i remember i wuz lke 2 or 3ish and i had the cutest barbie doll ever!! and there wuz a comercial on and it showed a convertable and it wuz red and i was laying in bed between my grandma and grandpa and my papa was in front so he didnt mind but my granny wuz short so i wuz all raised up and i wuz puttin my doll up there acting lke she wuz driving tha car and she told me to put it down and i didn't listen so she took my dolly away and made me go to my crib.....